Friday, 18 April 2014

Rose petals.

 It must be cliché to say, to live in the moment, we ought to believe that the sun comes after the storm; do we really?

Every little giggle, every little raindrop, you were like the grey sky that I live beneath. It is sunny, yet, stormy because the roses are the greatest nothingness. While I wish the petals would be the confetti, showering me con su alma de amorío.

So now, the oh so many times I reach out, I wish beneath this unrealistic world of our own, thee will be there, para mí.

 Chilly morning, a breeze of springiness and perhaps  a walk of shame there, too. Remind me how many roses, lay between our distance that not many dreams out of imagination could relate? Seven days, thirty-five days, this cappuccino will be drained; the webs of the dreamcatcher will be torn apart; and the tornado will come and sweep away, the ups, the downs, the nothingness.

Never do I wish time to pass, or wish it was never passing drop by drop, dilemma of an empty coffee cup - an insecure youngster.

Dive into this magical imaginative world, what comes after, is the dream that you never knew you had. Just keep breathing, this warmth and comfort that you created, for the best of our lives. Heaven doesn't seem so far away, if you go, till the end of this chapter after another…
When the lights go around, we'll be safe and sound to hold onto, a dream.
In this jungle I have lost, you, slowly begging the green light of greatness,
to bring back; all that I had.

Smile because of appreciation
Giggle because life happens
Dream because of surprises
Believe because you got to 
Love because of the presence

Tuesday, 8 April 2014

Vision. Perception. Intellection.

Have you ever felt lost, after achieving a certain things that you never thought you would in life? There's no doubt that you would have a splash of joy when you first achieved that, the sense of achievement and accomplishing something you have always wanted in life, or even making a dream that you never thought you had comes true. Dancing has always been the biggest part of my life, it is my passion and fire that will never diminish. In the place I grew up - Hong Kong, it is every latin and ballroom dancer's dream to dance at Blackpool which is in England, probably because of the expenses of travelling as well as the opportunity given is very little. However, now that I am studying here in Oxford, I have acknowledged that there are many more opportunities and less of a 'Dream' to dance at Blackpool. I was first a little shocked about that, there are many more other opportunities than the Blackpool Dance Festival, such as the annual University circuit competitions and the ISTD finalist competitions. Before I went to my first competition in England - 23 Feb 2014, my coach told me that if I get into the final round then I would be qualified for the ISTD finalist competition at Blackpool in November. As I mentioned in one of my blog post before, I did it and got qualified for the gold star category.

Last Sunday - 6 April 2014, I went to another ISTD competition in Gillingham. This time I was competing in a higher category which is Awards, and I made it again! However, I was not as excited as I won last time and it almost felt like I have overachieved something that it made me feel lost. It is not that I was not grateful for things, but it started to lose meaning and value for me to win and get qualified. Also the fact that I am not sure if I will be here in November, makes me feel more lost of the meaning of achieving these goals. Or is it ought to be that I have jumped another hurdle in life, so that now I am approaching my next goal, a bigger one and so big that it scares me?

I truly believe that our vision and perspectives change as we experience more and more in life, in other words, when I get older I will be stronger or… wiser :) Recently I have some thoughts or finally understood that life is too short to worry, to worry about the future that we cannot even see. When it comes to us, not as perfect as we pictured and expected in our imagination, we get upset about it. Then we would procrastinate on things as we over think, which leads to us regretting on things that we didn't do, this is definitely not an ideal cycle for all human beings.

Do things now, follow your heart. It may sound cliché, but it really is true. Life does not always give you a second chance, even if it does, it will never be the same. And when you start to regret things that you didn't do, it will be too late, it will be leaving…

What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride

And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh...

Tuesday, 1 April 2014

Fairy Dust

Spring break has just begun, April has just been around. The sun shines brighter than ever, the flowers rise and smile to the sun. For the first time in forever, I'm getting what I'm dreaming of… I went to a competition on Sunday, it was my second competition in England, and I got a champion trophy! It was a dream come true indeed, I was beyond grateful and right now am only more determined to work harder. It would be cliché to say that it was unexpected to have happened, but it really was surprising, since I have messed up a few parts in semi-final and final rounds that I was so frustrated with myself at that time. I was in tears and stamping my feet (in heels), because I couldn't accept the fact that I never unbalance for the hundreds of times that I have practised, yet I unbalanced in the final round. When they announce the result, it was a complete relief that I made it first and I couldn't be happier. I love what I do, and my passion for dancing will never diminish, which hopefully will lead me to success one day! 

We also celebrated our coach's birthday at the competition, it was spectacular that the panel paused the competition (or it was sort of a break), and the DJ played a birthday song for us to sing along while we gave the cake. Hopefully he liked the little celebration that we have prepared, although he said he is not a fan of massive celebrations or being at the centre of attention. I cannot thank him enough, for coaching me so well, it is not about how many titles he holds or whether he has a world ranking, but he genuinely is a great coach. I have never learned so much knowledge about dancing from other teachers I have had, and I have never had so many encouragements and supports from a coach. 

Now that I should be moving to working on the next goal, I am only more determined to word harder, because life is short to procrastinate on something you love and have so much passion towards. In the mean time, I have my first ever public exam next month, which is very nerve wrecking and stressful… It will definitely influence my future a lot, of what I will be doing at University or which path I am going to take, but I think everything happens for a reason and what comes around goes around!